Gratitude and giving thanks

This week, we are obviously thinking about gratitude.  I'd like you to write a three paragraph journal entry that answers the following questions:

1.  What do you tend to take for granted?

It is human nature for a person to take things for granted. Every day that passes things happened in our lives that we never give thanks for. Only when we lose that thing that we should have been grateful for we realize how we never gave thanks for it. In my life I have many situations like this that I forget to thank god for. Even though there has been many challenges in my life there has been many good things in my life. I usually to for granted my health,my job and where I live. Even though I miss my family in brazil i have to thank god that I am in america the land of opportunity. There are many people without jobs and I sometimes take this for granted. There are many sick people in the world that cant even walk! But god has blessed me with health even though I take it for grant sometimes.

2.  What are you grateful for (what things, experiences, people, etc)

There are many things I am grateful for. I am very grateful I am alive and well. I am very grateful to have my own apartment. Ever since I can remember I have always wanted my own place. Now I have my own place that is safe and I can call home. I am so very grateful to meet my good friends Phyllis and Toby. Phyllis and Toby have reminded me of my grandparents and they are very kind and trust worthy people that has helped me through out my life. I am grateful the most for such a nice mother that has helped me through out everything. Even though my dad has not been a good influence in my life my mom made up for it by always helping me with everything.

3.  What are some of the the good things that you you could "take in" and absorb more?  Take in the good and write about the experience

some more of the good things I could take in would be laughing more. Even though I am a very goofy kid I would like to laugh even more! Laughing is cure to everything I think if your always laughing you will always be happy. Whenever I am down and feel sad if I turn on the T.V. or see something funny happening I start to laugh and forget about the negative and enjoy laughing. Who doesn't love laughing any ways to me laughing is a gate way to happiness and if you have a good senesce of humor and dont take what everyone says so serious you will always be happy!

laugh and be happy

or live die miserable  

find your happiness 

happiness is life
happiness keeps us alive
happiness is life

to be happy is 
is to be fully content
 so find happiness

to be happy or
to be happy or be sad 
that is the question 

happiness moves us
moves us each day of our lives
that is what we strive

happiness and happiness
follow me everywhere i go
dont leave me alone

weakness that holds me back

There are many fears that we face through out life. Some of these fears we overcome with difficulty some of these fears stick with us through out our lives and may never be won. The part of growing up is overcoming these fears that hold us back from our true potential. We face these fears every day if its at work, school or even in our own homes.

Throughout my nineteen years of living I have been faced with many obstacles that has scared me and made me feel helpless. To overcome these obstacles I had to go through various challenges, embarrassment and great difficulty. Things that Ive had diffuclty throughout the past couple of months has been my work load. Ive had to face the challenges of working, going to school and living without my parents. As I write these paragraphs I feel overwhelmed with the work load Ive had. Each day I wake up at six and have to walk forty minutes to the train station then take the train to go to school. Then I have to sit through class and then go to work. Then I have to take the train back do dishes,cook and clean. My biggest fear is getting sick, this makes me afraid because I will not be able to go to school and miss work. Missing work would be a struggle because then I wouldn't have enough money to pay for my bills.

These fears and challenges through out my day has been hard to overcome. These things are just apart of growing up. I have to overcome these challenges and fears so I can move on with my life and reach my goals. To overcome this I will have to plan out my time wisely and make a schedule that will fit everything into my day. To overcome my fear of not having enough money to pay my bills because of missing work when I'm sick, I would have to save up my money and be very cautious the way I spend it. Then I would put it into a savings account and only tap into it when I really need that money. This will help me conquer my fear and know that I have a back up  

FIGHTING MY FEARS

underneath the skin lies a king

breathing in the skies of the spring

conside with my mind and learn anything

thats the dream ever since the yearn of my up bring

knowledges of twenty colleges 

acknowledge my accomplishments

inconspicuous chronicles

that leave people chronically ill

ive  surpassed with comical lively thrill

so ill but dormant like a neutrophil

replay me like Michael popping pills

pop never paid the bills 

so that means community college for real

ill never let the blues let me loose

ill wear these scars like a tattoo and over come this bruise 

ill never fade away ill never fade away

i will always make it to the next day

   

Daily routines

        Lately I feel like I have fell into a cycle of partners. Every day has been feeling the same. Same old routine, same old people,same old classes, and same old job. Nothing new and interesting has really been happening the past couple of weeks. Ive been having many dayjavos  because I legit have been doing the something every day! Some times I wish there where many more hours in a day so I could have time for an adventure and go out and do something fun.

     
       I feel like all I do is go to school in the morning then go to my job and stay up late finishing my homework. I am a very social human being it is very frustrating having many responsibilities and following the same schedule everyday. I really hope it is very different when I finish school because this life that I am living in the present it is pretty boring. But in general I can not really complain about anything other than that.

       I am a healthy young kid living in a great country full of opportunities. Even though I am very bored and feel like I am living a dull life right now it will be worth it at the end of my college career. I have to stay focused and not give up on my goals in life. I am going to have to sacrifice a lot of things so I can stay on the right track. Once I am done with college I can travel the world like I have always wanted to. As a nurse I will have the opportunity to work any where in the world and help many lives while getting paid to do it, so I guess I can put up with a little bit of board for now. =}

When I stop, I notice
 
When I stop, I notice
many things that people don't notice
like how many peoples voices are noteless 
how they follow the hottest trends 
even though their soulless and bent
 I notice that everyones trying to get rich
but to lazy to pick up a cent
i guess their to good for copper 
but will go after a peice a paper with a dead president
i notice how many people have arguments
even though their life is a timed event
I notice and thank god how im always happy
even though most of my lifes been a bit crappy
i notice how poeple live their lives in a rush
would they slow down if they know that someday
they will all roll over and turn into lumps of dust
I notice how life is so crazy
that everything and everyone 
might change up daily
when i stop and notice
i hope i notice how to fully live my life
and make the best of it before im not alive

The worst mistake that became a blessing

        Out of the many mistakes I have made One them still haunts me to this day. When I was young and I became desperate for money I decided to started selling weed. I made fast money and saved up a lot. But soon after I was arrested by an undercover cop. I had to stay in jail for a little while and had to go to court where I was really embarrassed by this mistake. My name made the paper and I felt so ashamed.

        After getting arrested they suspended me from school until the court was finished. I was so angry because it was my most important year and being suspended from school affected my grades so much. I also was so embarrassed when I went to work they left the news paper with the page open that mentioned me in it. I grabbed all the news papers at my job and put it into my backpack to hide it from everyone. Even hiding the news paper they still called me about the situation. They told me that someone cut out the section and put it into the bosses mail box. That just angered me even more and I became so frustrated. Then the next week they called me down the office again and said someone told them that I came to work high. This made me go home and feel sad because I didn't even do drugs I was sick and tired of being picked on because of a mistake I made.

       This whole situation became a blessing because I started to understand that for every action there is a reaction. For all your mistakes you make there is a consequence. This whole situation made me realize that if I do anything wrong it will change the way people look at me. Before this whole situation I was looked as a hard worker and a good kid. I became known after as A drug dealer and user even though that wasn't who i really was. But my actions spoke more then my words. So this made me realize that I had to straighten my act and become more careful because If I do bad things there will be negative consequences.    This was a blessing overall because it gave me knowledge.

The science of alchemy of the mind

the mind
can be limited by time
as we grow older
our souls become colder
we forget about our dreams
as we past the age of teens
but if we dedicate and believe
reality isn't as hard as it seems
we turn our dreams into gold
the gold is the happiness of our soul
if we try our best
the rest will come and manifest
then we will achieve alchemy
we will be truly happy
to follow our dreams
no matter the extreme
with dedication
no matter the situation
like the koi fish
we will make it
and become dragons
and achieve the science of alchemy